When Love Causes Hurt

How many times do you allow a loved one to hurt you? I suppose it is easier the first few times, when your heart is still strong and hopeful. But slowly you start to break down with the re-occurring hurt.

My sisters have caused me great pain, and that is a difficult thing for me to admit, even on my blog. I've tried to be there for them but I'm continuously the one they use and abuse...the one that shouldn't have feelings. Sister "B" is multiplicative towards me and sister "N" is oblivious.

The bridal shower invite was the straw that broke the camels back. I've been left out of a lot of the pre-wedding planning but this seemed like too much. I received the bridal shower invitation, which is being held in my home. And the hostess were listed as "B" and "N's" sister-in-law. No where on the invite am I even mentioned, just my home address is listed.

I'm not sure why it was this incident that made my heart shatter. As I said, there have been other things similar to this that have happened for years. But this is honestly the last straw for me. I need to start looking out for my own well being.

My sisters are my blood and I will always love them. But maybe we aren't meant to all be close friends. I think it is time for me to just be the bigger person and step away. My therapist agrees, I have tried to change the dynamic between we sisters for too long. It is a cycle that keeps repeating itself and in the end I am left to feel like shit. That is not right. It is time for a change, and I am ready to make it.

Friday Confessionals!

I came across a blog recently that does “Friday Confessionals” which I thought was really fun and cute. Well, I have quite a few dorky little quirks that are just dying to be confessed…so today I bring you my first “Friday Confessional.”

1) I love the Veggie Tales. Yes, those little cartoon vegetables that sing. No, I am not a parent so I probably have no business watching and listening to them. But I can’t help it. I actually had Jonah: A Veggie Tale Movie on while cleaning the house the other day. And I swear I cannot get those catchy little jingles they sing out of my head. My future child will HAVE to be a fan of Veggie Tales. He/she will not have a choice in the matter.

2) I am convinced my next door neighbor is stalking me and hubby. I have caught her watching us from her window one too many times. And she always lets little observations slip that I find a tad too noisy. It’s gotten to the point that I try my hardest to avoid the woman (I know, I’m terrible.) I even go to the extreme of putting my shopping bags in a huge rubber maid container to take them into the house. That way she can’t see what I’ve bought or where I’ve been. Does this make me a mean person? Maybe. But I don’t think I even care. (Yikes!)

3) Yesterday my sister “B” came to my workplace so I could help her find some jewelry. While she was there she got a text from my other sister “N”. The text said, “Some actress was stabbed…Reese something.” And B and I ran around telling everyone there that an actress was stabbed and we should turn on the news. We had the whole place in a riot. Then B texted N back and asked “Was it Reese Witherspoon???” and N texted back “No, it was with a knife.” Hahaha. It was a JOKE. B and I must have looked like the biggest ditzes around. I even told my BOSS. AHHHHH!

4) I have eaten the black forest ham sub from subway waaaay more times this week then I care to confess. (The actual number will remain secrete.) It is my go to meal when I don’t have time to do something homemade. And the scary thing is…I am not sick of it yet, in fact, I am craving one now, at 8 am!! I don’t think I will ever grow tired of the BFH sub. I could literally eat it every day for the rest of my life. I think. But I’m not going to try.

Gosh, sadly, I could go on and on. But I would not want to scare my readers away so I will stop at that. Besides, most of you are just getting to know me; I can’t let too much slip.

I’d love to see you gals confess some things…come on; I just embarrassed myself, now it’s your turn! Feel free to steal my Friday Confessionals banner. I love to share.

I hope you all have a FANTASTIC weekend! Happy Friday!

***I added an update on my previous post so please check it out!***