Monday, March 14, 2011

Waiting...

I don’t even know how to express my feelings right now. I would say that the adoption rollercoaster has actually left me a more trusting person, but the wait that I am dealing with presently still has me on pins and needles. 20 days ago (yes, I am counting) our social worker contacted us to let us know there were two possibilities of us being picked by birthmothers.
Both mothers had several other families they were considering but we were thrilled just the same. One birthmother was shown the portfolio on February 23rd and the other has been looking at them for almost 2 weeks. On Tuesday March 1st our social worker called to tell us that one of the BM’s had narrowed her choices down to us and one other couple.
Since then I have been very antsy. I lay in bed at the wee hours of night in fervent prayer for this to be our chance at parenting. I thank God for his lessons in trust and patients but I plead with him to end the wait. I feel more than ever that I am ready to be a mom. I see the longing in my husband’s eyes to be a father.  I think we are ready for this, I hope God agrees and will grant us the blessing of a baby.
I was much more hopeful within the first week of getting all this news. Now that time ticks by I start to think that we must not have been chosen. Either way I’d love to get an update from our social worker. I feel like life is at a standstill until I hear what is going on.
Please keep me and the hubster in your thoughts and prayers!

10 comments:

sara said...

Sending all my good thoughts your way. The waiting in adoption can be brutal, but the end result is so worth it!

♥ helen said...

Wow, this is so exciting ! I will think of you and pray for you. When you have your child you will know it was worth the wait to get just that child.
I know how it is to wait. We adopted in a bit different way, when we knew we were going to get our children (3,5 years old and 7,5 years old at that time) we still had to wait some months until we could bring them to Norway. Maybe I already have told you this...?

♥ helen said...

...cute background in your blog ;)
The silver feathers are still my favorite.

Sey said...

You will always be in my prayer everyday. Let's hope for the best. God will blessed you in the right time and if this is it, then He will surely guide you.

La Belle Vie said...

I am praying hard for you!! It's actually really nice to read about someone who might be close to their dream!
xx

Cindy S said...

Definately praying. Just remember: God has the perfect baby out there for you. You can't rush perfection.
Hugs

Jennifer said...

Eeeek! This is great news! I will be praying for all involved. I know how crazy the wait to find out can be. It is nerve wracking to say the least! I'll pray you have some bit of peace while you wait. Big hugs!

Ms Kayso said...

I really cannot wait to read the post of the exciting news that you have been blessed for a family. I'll keep you in my thoughts until then.

ps. love your layout, a lot!

melissa said...

Sending you both lots of love and prayers during this process. I hope good things start to roll in for you!!!

Also, I wanted to tell you that (since you are a follower of mine; was Love & Life now champagne wishes.) I have had some issues with my new blog set up, tried to create a new one under the same account with similar issues so I have created a new account under a new e-mail address & I wanted to make sure I tell all of my followers so if you follow me at http://melissa-champagnewishes.blogspot.com that would be so greatly appreciated! I will (when I get to it) unfollow you from my old account which I won't use anymore and re-follow you with my new one(this one)! Thanks again! Have a great week! xo melissa

janjan said...

wow! seems like a brewing good news!let's pray for that Rachelle.