I don’t even know how to express my feelings right now. I would say that the adoption rollercoaster has actually left me a more trusting person, but the wait that I am dealing with presently still has me on pins and needles. 20 days ago (yes, I am counting) our social worker contacted us to let us know there were two possibilities of us being picked by birthmothers.
Both mothers had several other families they were considering but we were thrilled just the same. One birthmother was shown the portfolio on February 23rd and the other has been looking at them for almost 2 weeks. On Tuesday March 1st our social worker called to tell us that one of the BM’s had narrowed her choices down to us and one other couple.
Since then I have been very antsy. I lay in bed at the wee hours of night in fervent prayer for this to be our chance at parenting. I thank God for his lessons in trust and patients but I plead with him to end the wait. I feel more than ever that I am ready to be a mom. I see the longing in my husband’s eyes to be a father. I think we are ready for this, I hope God agrees and will grant us the blessing of a baby.
I was much more hopeful within the first week of getting all this news. Now that time ticks by I start to think that we must not have been chosen. Either way I’d love to get an update from our social worker. I feel like life is at a standstill until I hear what is going on.
Please keep me and the hubster in your thoughts and prayers!