Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Confessions of an Insomniac

Some people just love slumbering. They adore sleeping in, they enjoy naps.

I have never been that person.

I love to wake up early. I can’t wrap my head around naps; they are such a waste of time. I tried to nap once last week. What happened? I was up most of the night.

I have never received an official diagnosis nor do I wish to be on any sort of pill to help me with sleeping, but I know I am an insomniac.

The majority of my sleep is of good quality. But there are usually one or two nights per week I only get a couple hours of sleep.

Sometimes it is because my mind is overwhelmed by thoughts. Other times I have a long to do list waiting for me and my body decides to get started early. (Like at 2 am.) But most of the time it will occur after I’ve had 5 or 6 consecutive nights of great sleep in a row. My body just can’t take it anymore. It gets restless and as a result I am on the move in the wee hours.

Tonight was a nearly sleepless night for me. I went to bed around ten and woke up around 1. Before you pity my terrible night’s sleep listen to what I accomplished-

-I finished reading my book

-I did some work for an online writing class I am taking this summer

-I cleverly arranged my schedule so that I can have 4 mini-dinner or coffee dates with different friends before July (on crazy month) rolls around

-I cleaned the kitchen…this includes scrubbing, sweeping, and mopping (OH MY!)

-I gave myself a manicure

-I had time for meditation, prayer, and deep thought in the tranquility of a quite house.

Sure, I am now rocking the “lack of sleep headache” along with my “insomniac eyes” but hey, it’s the price I pay.

I guess what I am trying to say with this post is that I have a love/hate relationship with my insomnia.

The really odd thing is when I weigh the pros and cons of my sleeping patterns I come up with more pros. I guess even though I have my dark moments deep down I am a hopeless optimist.

Oh the joys of self analysis via blog post.


sEy said...

You've accomplished a lot because of that sleepless nights. Your body is waking up because of your to do list. Just wanna let you know that you're not alone with that insomniac thing. I guess when our minds do excessive work like too much thinking, then our sleep were affected.

Glad it turned out there are lots of pros than cons.

Jennifer said...

I am right there with ya! I have to say I get some of my best work on the nights I can't sleep. Right now it's not so bad since I'm on summer vacation, but during the school year it's brutal. Can you just imagine teaching 20 five year olds with just 3 hours of sleep? Not fun! ha! I've just learned to embrace it. I don't stay in bed tossing and turning. I do what you do...get up and get stuff done.

janjan said...

great idea for insomniacs. i used to be an insomniac but it never occured to me that i can do things like that while waiting for sleep to come hehe...